a coward is incapable of exhibiting love;

it's official...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:48:31 GMT

Jonathon Wayne Dixon, Jr. Pictures!!!

Look. Adore. Smile.

the whole world is going to hell..and I'm along for the ride

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 21:09:59 GMT

Okay, so I finally broke down and "joined" twitter. I put joined in quotes, because I don't relaly think I'll be using it, but we'll see!

Here I am: http://twitter.com/braveperogative

more than two months...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:47:40 GMT

OMG. How long has it been? Days, weeks, no months. Month's right? Geez. I feel like a million things have happened. Let's see. We got a new car...the old one finally died, and that was stressful as hell, but everything worked out. Our new baby is a 2009 Kia Rio in tropical red, which I still say is just a redish-orange, but whatever. Maybe I'll post some pictures soon.

What else? Oh, genesis, IUPUI's literary magazine. I've been working on it this semester and it was released last Thursday. We also had a meeting of other college editors and a meeting of professional editors on Friday the 13th and both of those went well.

And classes. Classes have been taking up mucho time this semester. FYI, for anyone who is wondering, political analysis is HARD, HARD, HARD!!!

I think that's about it for the real world stuff. We're going to NYC on Dec 18 to visit Jonathon and Ruthie and little Ruthie and the baby, who is due the 8th....they are naming him Jonathon Jr. Don't ask me why, I had no say in the matter. LOL. They are going to be Jonathon and little Jonathon and Ruthie and little Ruthie. God love 'em.

Okay, so now for not real world stuff....

TV:

General Hospital has lost all hope for me. When Natty makes her final exit, so do I. And I haven't really been watching lately anyway. The Niz stuff is just...ugh. I can't deal with it. I don't even really care to complain about it anymore, I'm just not gonna watch it. There are just so many storylines that would have been better than what is playing out on the show now, even this stuff that I am happy about (JaSam) is not really holding my interest. This may be my last hurrah.

V, I am sort of in love with this show. I mean it is really too soon to tell, but I like it a lot and I think it could really be going somewhere. I actually watched the repeats of the old shows on sci-fi a couple of weeks ago and my only worry is that this new version will follow them too much, but I think they may not fall into that trap after all. So we'll see.

House and Lie to me. House for some reason has not really been pulling me in lately. I mean I still watch it and enjoy it and all, but if I forget to watch it then I don't feel like I'm missing anything, so we'll see how that goes. Lie to me is sort of the love of my life. I'd forgotten how much of a girl-crush I have on Tim Roth and his lack of understanding (or caring) about personal space. Oh, and the tattoos, can't forget that tattoos. What is it about a smart guy with tats that is just ridiculously appealing? Who knows. Anyway, this is sort of my happy place right now.

Supernatural oh how I love thee, let me count the ways. This just keeps getting better and better. The whole never-ending battle of good vs. evil being played out with Sam and Dean. Good play gentlemen, good play. And we can't forget the comedy relief. I mean is there anything cuter than a pissed-off Cas with duck tape over his mouth? Nope. I think not.

I am sure there is tons more I could say, but those are the highlights and the low-lights for me, right now.

Fanfiction:

TRLT is coming along. Sort of. Truth be told, I'm nearing the end of it, but this new version of Identity keeps getting in the way. The damn thing is starting to look like it's gonna be a three-part series or something. I've got a cast list page (with actors I'd like in the orignal roles) and outlines from here to forever and short, postcard type stories to go along with it and...and...and. This thing is just becoming a monster, I don't even think I'll be able to put most of it (other than just the story itself) up on ff.net. I may have to create a whole damn website or something. I mean it's crazy. I keep adding characters and plotlines and locations and somehow it's all still working out okay. I just...It's gonna kill me and oh, what a lovely way to go. Well, *cocks head to the side* I can certainly think of BETTER ways, but you get the point. This is large. LOL.

Okay, I think that is finally everything and I promise to try to keep everything updated more often from now on....I hope. :) .

HELP!!!

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 22:50:45 GMT

Okay, so I have a class that I have to create a website for. LOL, of course I'd take a class on the one thing that I am almost completely computer illiterate on. Don't ask. Anyway, IUPUI's IUWARE website has both dreamweaver and frontpage that students can download for free. So here are my questions: Has anyone used on or both of these? Which did you prefer/would you recommend? And would anyone be willing to fly to Indy and kill me...? Please. Now. Thanks.

TRLT chapter posted...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:15:19 GMT

It's been a while and I don't really have time to make a 'real' post now, but I just wanted to say, "I finally have a new chapter of TRLT posted!!" What has it been, years now? Though--points for me--I've posted since Loke has. Love you Loke, but I gotta make fun. You know me.

Anyway, yeah, TRLT is up here.

there's a reason the name Rachel comes from the Bible...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 12 May 2009 14:43:09 GMT

Let me just say that Mother's Day this year will go down in infamy. It was crazy...and then it was followed up yesterday by more crazy, and some theft. Okay, so Sunday started off innocently enough. We (mom and I) were going to get up, get dressed, catch and early movie, and then go to my aunt Rachel's for dinner.

Boy were we suprised.

About half way to the movie theater the car makes a scary *clomp* sound and then preceeds to stop working. Well, mostly. We got through a busy intersection at about five MPH and then pulled into a gas station where I had to push the thing into a parking space. So mom called my aunt Rachel (who has AAA on her phone) and she came and picked us up and we had the car towed to our mechanic. So yeah, that sucked and stressed us out and was scary and everything, but the rest of the day went alright. We went over to my aunts, had dinner, hung out, and generally had a fun time.

Soo...then my mom gets a call Monday morning from our mechanic. Guess what? You'll never guess. No one would ever guess this, LOL. The damn thing got broken into in his parking lot. Yup, you read right. Someone actually busted open the driver side window and stole the car radio. Who does that by the way. Steals a radio from a car that's already at the mechanic. I mean there are one of two possibilities there: (1) the radio won't work because the car doesn't work or (2) the people are already dealing with enough drama, why steal their radio? I just don't get it. Anyway, it happened to be option (1) for us. The damn thing hasn't worked for months and months and months. And when it does, it only plays half of the one CD that is stuck in it. Too funny.

Anyway, Dave, the mechanic, looked at the car and got back to us and the problem was the alternator. The alternator which was replaced less that three months ago. Not cool. (Well, either it was the alternator burning out some wires, or some wires buring out the alternator. We don't know which.) And, saint that he is, he blamed it on the alternator, called the company, and is making them replace the damn thing and pay for the work. So that's fine. Or will be later today. The ONLY thing we have to pay for is the cost of the new window, so that's cool. Especially since he didn't technically even know our car was going to be in his lot--he's kind of being a nice guy by putting back in our old radio and not charging for the work on anything.

BUT the problem then was how was my mom supposed to get to work today? Thank God I don't have classes anymore (finals were last week: I got four A's and one B. woot-woot. Though that B sort of pisses me off). Anyway, my aunt Rachel (the biblical saint) paid for a rental car for twenty four hours.

Oh. Oh. LOL. I almost forgot the cable drama, from yesterday. Our cable has been randomly going out and so we had to call the company and the came out and it turns out that the wiring in our apartment sucks and it's what was causing our cable problems. So,we had to move everything around yesterday and plug stuff in at different ports--because, of course, the damn managment in this place isn't going to jump to fix our wiring.

So yeah. That was my weekend, and Monday. Which was followed by a week of brain draining finals.

I need a nap.

"she's having his baby...what a lovely way to say she loves him..."

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 20:05:14 GMT

Guess what? Guess what? Guess what?

I's gonna be an auntie. Yup, dat's right. Ruthie (Jonathon's, my big-big brother, girlfriend) is pregnant. Everyone keeps asking if they are gonna get married and I don't know, I honestly don't really care, I'm just excited. He's gonna be such a good father. I mean seriously, out of all of my mother's children, he'll make the best parent.

She's due Dec. 9, though who knows whether or not that will change considering how early it is in the pregnancy right now...but still. LOL. Have I mentioned I'm going to be an aunt...? So cool.

dungeons and dragons with Riddick...that could be, uh, interesting

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Sun, 26 Apr 2009 05:13:45 GMT

Okay, so I am supposed to be doing homework right now, and I sort of am, but I just took a time-out to play around and found this. Loke, since you and I have been talking about Riddick, Vin, and Vin's totally adorable obsession with D&D lately, I thought I'd post this. Okay...now that I've taken that little bit of time out of study...back to work I go!

ETA: Okay, this one is pretty funny too. Though I am starting to hope that maybe, possibly Dollhouse is getting better. LOL.

chants one more day...one more day

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 19:02:58 GMT

Okay, so I have two classes tommorow (Editing and US Foreign Policy) and then I finally get my damn Spring break and I gotta say that there are no words in English, Spanish, French or any other damn language to express my utter joy. One full week. No homework (well, a little homework), not getting up at six in the morning, no classes....just rest. Joyous, joyous rest. *does happy dance*

On another note: what the hell is up with GH? I mean not so much the show, which is actually sort of entertaining to me right now, but all of the backstage shit. Has it just been a while since I've actually read spoilers and rumors or is this shit worse than its ever been? I'm constantly bouncing between thinking it's all BS (because it usually is) and thinking that we're reaching the ending of GH's run. I mean good lord, this stuff is crazy.

woot-woot, tommorow off

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 21:45:14 GMT

OMG guys, I haven't seen GH since Monday's show. I've missed Jason and Rebecca scenes and all that good stuff...I don't wanna get my hopes up, but I finally have a day off of homework and I will be watching Tuesday through Friday's GH's. Woot-woot. LOL.

So, I finished a paper (US foreign policy and the Israel-Palestine Conflict) at about 2:56 and it was due at 3:00. That was after marking up a manuscript for my Copy-Editing exam. I need rest. Badly.

I'm feeling a little bit better about the funds that will soon by making their way out of my account and into Westview hospital's, but I'm still not exactly happy about it. I've been doing the look on the brightside stuff....It's sort of working. For example, the bright side is that I only had me $500 deductible and 20% to pay...it could have been the whole damn bill. See. Bright side.

Oh, Loke, I finally found (well, finally looked for) bigger pics of Jason and Rebecca...if you haven't found any yet, they are HERE. Have fun, I know I will be. I guess Sonny (or SEm, God luv them) is still good from something...or I guess that would be S&Em fans. :)

Okay, gonna go now. Mom should be here to pick me up soon. I'm trying to keep up with LJ more lately though...during the school year I have a tendency to forget about it.

BTW, I am going to be exanimate today. I do not know what that means, but the little face looks about how I feel...so that should do.

"lack of money is the root of all evil"

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 14:28:55 GMT

Okay, so I am having a really crappy day...week, maybe month. I got that stupid cyst removed over winter break and at the time I was thinking it would cost like $150 or $200-$300 at the most, you know. Well, now I'm up to over a thousand. Why is that? Why is it that when I actually get to the point where I can save a little money something like this happens? I mean damn, I just gave my mom like $400 to help get the car fixed a few weeks ago, you'd think that would have put some good karma out into the world and this shit wouldn't be blowing back on me. But no. I swear to God, I'm just gonna start being a bitch about everything...that seems to work for everyone else.

"goddamn ripway"

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:49:17 GMT

Okay, well, it looks like I am gonna have this journal style for a while. Ripway keeps acting up (CONSTANTLY) and I don't have the energy to deal with putting all the stuff for this journal somewhere else. So we'll have this one for a while! :)

Yes, yes I would like to speak with a therapist...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 16:37:05 GMT

OMG. I'm watching yesterday's GH and I literally just giggled like a school girl at Jason missing Rebecca at the hospital. I was a little worried they wouldn't hint at Emily and Jason's relationship and now I've gone and rewinded it like five times now. OMG. That's it, I'm gonna go work on Identity (the r-r-remix) now, I need something to hold me over.

*giggles like a maniac*

one of these things just DOES belong...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Fri, 16 Jan 2009 20:21:29 GMT

Riddle me this: Why is Emily's picture suddenly missing from Jason's mantle? Has anyone else noticed this? I am watching today's show (1/16) and Michael's picture is there, but it looks like Emily's isn't....

Oh, oh, oh..Nikolas just said that it was Emily's birthday!! Oh my!

Oh, also, Maxie and Jason from yesterday, sooo hilarious!

"Good writers borrow from other writers. Great writers steal from them outright."

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 19:54:03 GMT

Okay, ladies. Chapter 26 of TRLT has been uploaded. I've been puting in a lot of work on my reworked version of Identity and I hope to have the first chapter up before I start classes on Monday. I've got a pretty good outline for it and I'm really trying to make this one waaay less complicated than TRLT, so I'm working out most of the big suprises in the first couple of chapters and then letting the rest be about dealing with those suprises and Jason/Nadia (BTW, that is not!Emily's name. Nadia Rebecca Karpov, hint-hint!) dealing with their feelings for each other. I think I'm gonna run an outlne by you guys at some point, but I want to continuing working on it a little first.

So ready TRLT, enjoy, and review! :) :) *huggles*

"...happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open"

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 18:46:52 GMT

OMG! OMG! OMG! Guys, it's for real! It's for real! I mean there are pictures and everything...oh, oh and high heeled boots and leather jackets. My God!!! I can't, I shouldn't let myself get so damn happy about this but....EEEEE!!! *breathes*

(This is sick, really. My birthday is in nine days and I am happier about Natty coming back to GH than I am about that...so sad. I am sure in a few days there will be a rant post to follow this one up with me saying how they've ruined my vision of bringing her back.)

Natty's Back!

"Art is never finished, only abandoned"

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 16:35:25 GMT

Hey, coolness, I just found out I can download Adobe Photoshop Elements 7.0 from IUPUI's IUware online for free. Now I'm gonna have a million new toys to play with during my winter break. There's gonna be new books to read, a new fic to work on (and TRLT to finish) and Photoshop...Hmmm, this could be bad. :)

Okay, now I need to go finish working on my final paper for my Politics of Islam class. It's due on Sunday, but I'm getting my cyst removed tomorrow and I don't know if I'll be able to type afterwards. Also, my grandma's 75th birthday party is Saturday. *shhhhh* It's a surprise!

"She is too fond of books, and it has turned her brain."

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 21:35:52 GMT

Okay, ladies, I need help. It's Christmastime and one of my new traditions is to ask for books, but I've really only got like three on my list so far...I've just read too many this year and I've got finals on the brain. So I need book recs. So what are you guys reading....? What's good?

"Everytime I get out, they pull me back in..."

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 16:44:05 GMT

Your rainbow is shaded violet.

What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Wow, that's pretty close. Not exactly exciting or anything...but mostly true. :)

Okay now onto the true reason for this post:

Okay, I know it's not true, I mean I know, but those damn spoiler-having-people they are MEAN, freaking mean! I woke up this morning to this:

GH has signed NL to return in 2009 as the pampered daughter of a Russian mobster. I have no words for this. They killed Emily Q and are replacing her with a mobster played by the same actress. I hope the media and fans chew on his ass but good. But what does Guza care. He just wants to see Jason go up against a mobster whose daughter looks like his dead sister. I hate Guza. Hate HIM!

How mean is that...I mean ignoring the comentary from the 'scoopster'? I know it's not true...it can't be! Mostly because I've had this idea. Seriously, I swear, I have. I've been considering scrapping Identity for this exact story and now they are taunting me with it...taunting me! People keep talking about Natty coming back and I konw it's the same as the talk about Vanessa coming back--or at least I think I do, but I can't help it. I get all worked up and excited and happy and then BAM! it all comes crashing back down. So wrong, soo wrong!

I've a lump on my wrist...

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 18:07:20 GMT

Okay, so I finally have my first doctors appointment, this Friday, to start the process of getting my ganglion cyst removed. I've had the thing drained twice and it has come back, so I'm finally just gonna suck it up and get the surgery, mostly cause the damn thing is right on a nerve and it hurts like hell sometimes. Anyway, appointment is Friday and hopefully I'll get it removed sometime during winter break. Woot-woot! Now I must go work on my three hunder and eighty five thousand (okay, I'm exaggerating a little bit) assignments I have due in the next three weeks.

Christmas Presents.

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 18:35:48 GMT

Uh, I am so torn. I've been seriously thinking about buying my mom Lion King tickets for Christmas. I was gonna buy her tickets for the 23rd of Dec, but I am just not sure. It's at the Murat Egyptian room and they are pretty good seats (orchestra, center, row T out of like ZZ rows) -- but I've never been to a performance at the Egyptian room and I am just worried about how good the seats are and if they are really worth it and if she'll like it. Ugh, I don't know. I think it would be a great present....but I just don't know.

Has anyone seen the Lion King performed? Was it worth it? I mean obviously I would rather go in NY, but that's not an option so I'm just wondering if it's worth it in general.

It's November 4th People

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 16:53:18 GMT

VOTE!!!!

dies

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 20:11:18 GMT

Oh, God, I must be crazy. I just finished my 'zine project in my Literary Editing and Publishing class and I am seriously considering starting an online one. It's just...they are sooo much work and I don't know if I really have the money to do it right now, but then it's so appealing to me too. I just...gah! I've got two political science classes this semester, two English classes, and one five credit Spanish class and next semester looks EXACTLY the same.

BTW, have I mentioned that I may be double majoring in English and Political Science. If I've calculated the credits right, which I hope I have, then I should be done with both in three semesters. THREE. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I think, either way, I am graduating in Spring of 2010, even it if kills me! That's not too bad though, six years in school for a double major, that considering that I changed my major once. Not too shabby.

Anyway, the 'zine. I don't know. It would be fun and I could add some political and international news stuff to it....but the time and the money. Again, GAH!!

Calling All Artists

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 20:27:22 GMT

Okay, flist and wives, I have an assigment due in my literary editing and publishing class next week that involves making a small 'zine. My group and I have decided, since its timely, to do a politically themed 'zine and this is my call out for any and all fiction, nonfiction, poems, or art that anybody has (or wants to make) concerning ANYTHING that has ANYTHING to do with the 2008 Presidential Election. We are not really being picky and no one (other than my professor and a few other students) will see this stuff, so if anybody wants do be helpful: Have at it. It can be pro-McCain, pro-Obama, pro-Biden, or pro-Palin (or anti any and all of the above) the ONLY prerequisite is that it CANNOT, CANNOT, CANNOT be serious. At all.

So if anybody is feeling particularly artistic, or has any little Presidential doodles then send them my way. LOL.

Fanfic Updated

Girlfearless16@yahoo.com — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 19:41:21 GMT

Okay, life has been crazy lately with ridiculous amounts of homework and midterms, but I did just take a little time out to add ONE new chapter of Identity up at ff.net and TWO new chapters of TRLT. So go, read, review...have fun!